It starts off in a moment And emotion spent A performance where you were wrong It snowballs into more shit And the focus shifts on To staying were already gone A free fall is in motion As I hopelessly drift off Dreading my remorse The final of the solstice Still I hold my position For better but probably worse Dedicated to the man that I thought I was Thank you for letting me take control of the course I know it’s hard to see your destiny squandered But that’s the thing with trauma Ain’t no order here Dishonor appeared and ran this shit for a decade I’m thinking my debts paid Lemme get some leeway A bold Nigga Self centered Stripped on audio Performance oriented Ill equipped Switchin up 90s flows Design half the time Failed visual Life in 4k is still digital Despite this Minimized attempt to skip the crisis I might just flip back to my old ways and burn the bridge. Disorder a kin to keeping it together Good in any weather Shell shocked local veteran So ahead of his time He was allowed to perfect it The method Madness capitalized on my excess To appear To know you (3 words you didn’t mean) To appear To know you (3 words you didn’t mean) To appear To know you (3 words you didn’t mean) To appear To know you (I love you I hate you I want you) And I still can’t find my way back home (I love you I hate you I want you) I’ve been looking forward but I got to go (I love you I hate you I want you) And I still can’t find my way back home (I love you I hate you I want you) Should I let it go You said this before I said goodbye Recognize My crime As your reward Stuck in a shadow Hallowed out by What you thought I don’t deserve Up on a mantle holds the challenge You show rightly no concern It’s only gonna hurt on the weekend That still gives me 5 days to strategize a defense If you were surprised that just means I haven’t peaked yet I’m getting better with time Settle my mind And then release it Digitalize form of therapy LMFT shit Shoutout to my Mom and Aunt Felicia Wondering if meeting him be good for my mental health Completely change my understanding of self I’ve been equipped to handle most situations But seeing a man they claim to be my father in the grips of paranoia could trigger some trauma and leave a bigger mark than we started with It’s all pain I won’t reciprocate what others did Devotions crossed up Leave us doubled down Staying toxic Prevented the healing of the crown 26th iteration of bliss And I’m still wondering It burying the weight Unaddressed would carry it forward They say the only purpose in life is lighten the load When there’s more to existence will you please let me know A bold Nigga Self centered Stripped on audio Performance oriented Ill equipped Switchin up 90s flows Design half the time Failed visual Life in 4k is still digital Despite this Minimized attempt to skip the crisis I might just flip back to my old ways and burn the bridge. Disorder a kin to keeping it together Good in any weather Shell shocked local veteran So ahead of his time He was allowed to perfect it The method Madness capitalized on my excess To appear To know you (3 words you didn’t mean) To appear To know you (3 words you didn’t mean) To appear To know you (3 words you didn’t mean) To appear To know you (I love you I hate you I want you) And I still can’t find my way back home (I love you I hate you I want you) I’ve been looking forward but I got to go (I love you I hate you I want you) And I still can’t find my way back home (I love you I hate you I want you) Should I let it go

Passionate, Passionless Passionless Passion Past assistance couldn’t set this right Tragic split intense new relationship You gone be the one to say I ended it I believed you took it all for granted Now we’re strangers Blaming each other For the ways we interpreted our anger We Fucked Up Danger Chasing A connection Dreaming of a life with a sense direction Fly around the world so you think you’re rounded Lying to yourself when you know I was counting On someone to have my back through that encounter Instead you turned it all around to assert power How could I fall for this again Watching it close to an end How could I fall for this again I blamed myself Ain’t need your help At distance Distant Lover (Distant Lover) Distant Lover (Distant Lover) Distant Lover (Distant Lover) Distant Lover (Distant Lover) Distant Lover Distant Lover Distant Lover Distant Lover Stay in the same old routine Will I, stay in the same old routine Or will I, break free of the energy stocked up Contorting my mind till I finally get locked up Product of my environment that’s a shot at Everything that you thought I would be at this age and time I’ve been clear headed Loaded up with the sedatives Store it formulated Present it and watch it all down With the Hennessy flowing I’m trying to regain and reshow it Another effect at this broken man's attempt at exploring Who I am What I’ve seen What I’ve done What I might’ve If I shoot kill steal fuck up what I’m fighting All these inhibitions that secretly keep on winning All these situations that twist him up into submission And fall down to another level That I’ve seen before Fall down to another level Where I still won’t change How could I fall for this, How could I fall for this How could I fall for this, How could I fall Distant Lover (How could I fall for this again) Distant Lover (How could I forget) Distant Lover (How could i fall for this again) Distant Lover (How could I forget)

I’m staring straight into the sun The spirit of one This spirit is draining all the water from my blood Dehydrated as fuck So I turn to dust While paint crust coats every single thing that I touch I started spiraling When the exit seemed As easy as clinging to the wing of a c17 Draped in glory I threw my hands up Guess I had had enough Ain’t no way that I’m going back to the way it was I shoulda told ya This one's for the culture I’m starting it over You can sink swim or surf the wave I ain’t afraid Seems I always got something to say And Ima be able to duck the fade From decade to decade Conflict to conclave Universally admired for my escapades They want me in the black box With the Escalade Well let me take the top off Of my masculinity They sold us A lie We bought in I got out I walked across The continental divide More like California to DC And nobody would meet with me Still upset No threats just desires To watch this burn down In a glorious fire Theater fascist And all the apprentices I wonder how much longer Before it collapses They beg for borders And now they hold us In a constant state of quarantine to quarters If prophecy’s believed We’re all dishonored So suck my dick And make me feel important Sage advice Mobilize And keep the pressure on em To survive In an existence you never wanted But one you made your own and One you want control of Don’t you wanna fuck the world up? (I know I do) I know I do, I know I do, I know I do, I know I do You know I do I know I do, I know I do, I know I do, I know I do You know I do I know I do, I know I do, I know I do, I know I do Watching life in playbacks gonna be funny Will I root for anybody but me Will I disassociate and study Probably how we end up really living Watching all of this unwind Giving new meaning to point and Time Is it fleeting or infinite design Will I grieve or breath through newborn eyes I’ve questioned I’ve lied I’ve tempted Denied the affection Applied in discretion Turned violent aggressive Connected through a few insurrection Still I don’t know peace Is it because that’s not what I seek Still I don’t know peace Is it because I’m so fucking weak It must be Must be me It must be Must be me You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward You said it before I’m ready to go I’m willing to move forward Forward, Forward, Forward, Forward, Forward, Forward 4

Casting his ties to the shore He sets off in uncharted waters These recurrent ides These recurrent ides These recurrent ides These recurrent ides Will he return Or find a place of his own These recurrent ides These recurrent ides These recurrent ides These recurrent ides Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Do you know me Do you get uncomfortable When I'm brought up in conversations Having a hard time explaining My absence and my motivation For life liberty and progress on the situation Based in My disinterest For how you view me and my pigment I really could be that nigga I really went that distance Don't need to get specific Won't even flex my business Just say I'm codependent And a little bit excessive Drinking Way to much on the weekends Yet I wrote this on a tuesday And I'm still drunk I miss the days when we would zoom And get fucked up Now I'm running out of reasons For me spiraling this month Was it How we left everything out east Or the fact that I lost ya to this fucking disease There's at least three screens in front of me at all times And it's blinding me to everything I'm trying to deny Like is this just another vain obsession Artistry I question Even though I'm good at it Ocalypse is just the current state of your depression Put that effort into something else And you'll be good at it Funny how this thinking got me doubting my mind Myself My life My presence divine And still I rise Opportunities Will come and go and you'll find That this will all work out Earth will provide Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding They say i've been hiding on the westside with it Climbing to the top Uh-huh aye yes I did it People always change up Always hate, why Cause they see us count up past the daylight Hola Hey Hello Watch me moonwalk on the ceilos I used to live in the ghetto Now a girl live and do better Heart grow cold on these late night trips I don't think you know who the eff I is On my soul Do this for my kid Prayers towards the east God watch my six Whoa, yeah, yeah, yeah Cause I been hiding on the westside with it Whoa, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm doing me for good, so why you tripping Whoa, yeah, yeah, yeah Cause i've been hiding on the westside Whoa, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm doing me for good, so why you tripping Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding Hello Hello goodbye Lemme tell ya Another time Exactly where I've been hiding

Hello elllo lol oh once again This time I'm claiming innocence The silence is inhibited Giving into all of my vices as attributed This constant That's haunting Keeps evolving If I bring it to light you're gonna reward me Elevated In a state of chemical warfare We've been here before And it's time to venture on And on and on The same mistakes Were never what went wrong Said I'm guilty I'm guilty I'm guilty I'm guilty I'm guilty Of following up When you'll see When you'll see When you'll see It's never enough For the ones who judge Hey What do you call that This a fall back Hey What do you call that This a fall back Hey What do you call that This a fall back This a This a fall back This a Fall back So what's the use This new excuse Is not a battle cry Proving you were just as brutal As the other side Keeping it in line Where's the true innovation You stand accused of crimes Yet unwilling to face them Chase these cold hard facts with proof Address the damage at the root I hope that you Could float the truth And dance through your distractions Standard practice way to long Withstood advances Made you strong Who's taken chances Praise to yours Invoked attachments tied to charm I recklessly fought hand and knee Was temporarily relieved It's still my duty while I breath Don't persecute me for my failure to believe This starts here This starts right here This stops here This stops right here This stops right here I never knew what I wanted of love I never knew what I wanted from us I never knew what I wanted of love I never knew what I wanted of us

Light me up Until I fade away Giving up my pride For just one more night How's it taste Are you satisfied Whether worth it or Worsened You've furthered The verdict Dangle life in front of me and say fight Like this the only reason that I'm alive Entertainment Content labeled escapism With a glimpse of me claiming you were right Safe in a rotating wave of stress Half baked so I cling to no defense Latch keyed to my reckoning I wore it on my sleeve To symbolize the weight and anxiety In sobriety While we're staring at the brink of collapse of society I'm fine Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move Did your luck run out Did you win that fight Did you lose yourself Did you almost die Did they weaponize Your safety Trying to break the chains Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move Scared to live Scared to die Scared to try Terrified of how it's set up for the right Normalize doubt in the victims eyes Organized only when it's televised or on live Fortified truth and agree to some change Stays the same, falling further as we hurdle to the flame Barricade birth, and reprieve in the raise Most of y'all won't understand so you greet it with some hate Draped in the claims that you made You put your foot down Only way to defend me Attempting to bridge disinterest Without statistics Leave A mark on the physical plane of existence Dog ma only outlook is reform To play the part your born with is deform I'm swarmed in normalcy Still tread with ease Inform the siege They gone have to prepare for war Not everything has be profound But anything could inspire change and power Can't make waves when you're hiding all day So you dare to integrate Take a break from the insanity If I'm repeating let me Correct the road to my freedom I've been assured beyond reason This is the way my goals meet achievement Meet achievement Meet achievement Y'all know what I really mean So Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move Did your luck run out Did you win that fight Did you lose yourself Did you almost die Did they weaponize Your safety Trying to break the chains Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move I know that people lied to you I saw it for myself I more inclined to see this through Since no one's here to help When will we finally value truth Instead of what they sell Why y'all so comfortable Existing in this fucking hell If it's so easy Than why have I Not been Immortalized I'm still receiving grace from a god I'll never satisfy Compliance in your own arrival All these riots are forms of survival Well alright just Place this Back on me It's alright This ain't the first time that you'll leave And surprise surprise It's not a mystery You know what you did to me You know what you're dead to me Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move Did your luck run out Did you win that fight Did you lose yourself Did you almost die Did they weaponize Your safety Trying to break the chains Liven up Liven up Liven up Liven up Because it's time to move

Who are you And can I learn to trust Let's spend a few months Laughing and arguing Then pretend that we're not in love You don't wanna be the executioner No You don't wanna be the next excuse I wear No I'm afraid we're already there No change for the better I think I'm losing my grip No change for the better I think I'm losing my grip You said you wouldn't leave But I guess I had to cut you off I was lost I was trapped in my own thoughts Am I deserving of peace Honest I plead I can lay all of this Right at your feet But I am only my release Talented waiting on flashes to pose Heartbreak distracted us Fractured the code Tried to erase you like that was the goal I'm losing hope Here You could just say fine And I could just play my role And deny it Taking our sweet time I'll see you at the crossroad No change for the better I think I'm losing my grip No change for the better I think I'm losing my grip Save me Will somebody save me We're through the hurt Save me Will somebody save me We're through the hurt Save me Will somebody save me We're through the hurt Save me Will somebody save me We're through the hurt You don't need to be saved Salvation comes from within Find it And you are home I think I'm losing my grip Placed Out of reach Perfectly shrined Sense of release Open your eyes Drift to me Tell me I'm home When all of this Keels over Will I haunt you, will I hover State my truth Or commit no further Names Dates Memories in bloom Faces Ages When you do it too When you do it too When you do it too When you break the news I'll be In view Right beside You Everything will be just fine Everything will be alright

I've been wasting away Trying to finalize Packaged all my mistakes And put 'em into view How I hate that there's space Now between us Hoping you could feel safe Like this is all you knew We're watching the world end While we build a bond Funny how in the midst of this It's all I want Spending my time with you No regrets I accept This is all I ever knew And even though we might deny It doesn't change the countless nights You were always on my mind I admit Let's commit Like this all we ever knew To appear to no To appear to know you Why don't we cross that line When I look in your eyes I only see a better side Reflections of what I can't hide Still you accept me When I get down you lift me up Acting a clown to show you love Watching you grow has been so beautiful But I Know I should take my time with this But I Can't seem to give that shit a rest Hopeless romantic Who's got Baggage and damaged response Part of the process I know We're both willing to evolve You say you're free You make the same mistakes And even though it hurts you You keep on playing those games Remove the disillusion This repeating theme The novelty's worn off A habit unresolved I'm waiting to be wrong I'm loyal to a fault But what if I'm wrong To appear to no To appear to no To appear to no you Three words that you didn't mean Three words that you didn't mean Three words that you didn't mean Three words that you did to me Three words that you didn't mean Three words that you did to me Three words that you didn't mean Three words that you did to me Three words that you said to me Three words you'd forever mean That you said to me That you said to me That you said to me That you said to me Three words that you didn't mean Again